I am a worrier. By definition, I torment myself with disturbing thoughts. I think about the negative instead of the opportunities that are possible. I worry about what others might think, what they might say, that I might fail. But I am changing.
Covid isolation has left me with time to "go down the rabbit hole." I have worried about my health and the health of my family and friends. I have been lost without in-person contact. I have worried about the minutia of schedules, masks and distancing and leaving my life at school. I worried about what is next in life for me.
But in the worry I had courage to do things I have never done before. Birthday videos for my teenager, celebrations via Zoom, taking on-line classes. Redefining myself, reconnecting with new communities, reflecting about who I am and who I want to be.
I have been a warrior because I was a worrier.
I am focused on being a warrior.
Where is your focus?
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